An Emotional Entry......

This entry is unlike my other entries so be warned...sm people may not like ths but ths is "my space" so I'll say wht I want to.....Not myself today....

How do u know if he means it whn he says tht he loves u
How do u know tht he won't break your heart
How do u know tht he will never stray
How do u know if a new woman might cm along
How do u know tht he's not thinkg of smone else whn he's with you
How do u know tht you are the one he really wants to be with
How do u know if u're meant for each other
How do u know if his feelings has not changed
How do u know tht he will never leave u
The thg is, you never will knw....

No matter how long u've been together
Love is still a gamble
Sm people lose, sm people win
The stronger you love, the harder you fall
I'm willing to take the risk and fall as much & as hard as I have to
I believe in giving my all in my relationshp as long as he still loves you
I'll cry as much as I want to as long as it makes me feel better
No relationship is free of tests & trial (be it bf & gf, engaged couples or even married couples)
Wht doesn't break a relationshp makes it stronger
It's a matter of working harder and constant dua & prayers (of cos fate lies in Allah swt's hands)
But dun just take everythg as Allah's will n just do nothing abt it
It takes effort on our part as well
Honestly and trust is impt
And if the relationship doesnt work, then : wht doesnt kill you, makes you stronger
Its better to have loved and lost love thn to have never loved at all

Fareez, the closer we get to our wedding, the "scared-er" I am (i'm startg to feel tht 9mth is not too far away)
Will ths work? Will we get the wedding that we've been wanting so much?
Will we be happy? Will it last?
I dunno but I hope we will
We've managed 11 years of sadness, pain, happiness, laughter and Insya-Allah we'll get thru much more together. We're both stronger than we were when we first met. I believe tht ther's a "hikmah" in most thgs tht happen.

I wanna thank you for everythg tht u've given me (eg ur sacrifizes, ur advise, ur honesty etc). U've made me a better person...although I could be much better in many ways but u've helped me change many thgs. Lets continue to work hard together k? I love u Fareez. : )

Ending ths entry with part of "Superman (It's Not Easy)" by Five For Fighting cos ths song can be quite an inspiration at hard times:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see
It might sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away, away from me
Well, it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a phony red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me