Not feeling well

I dunno whts wrong with me....I have a very bad migraine, tried sleeping it off but it seems to get worst..tummy ache, no appetite, feel nauseous, even vomiited twice whn i reached home...I went office ths morning then to Haw Par for meeting & then bck to d office. After lunch i went to dr n i got pm mc....r said my blood pressure a bit low as well, look a bit weak as well...left office 2+pm...still giddy....sigh~

An Emotional Entry......

This entry is unlike my other entries so be warned...sm people may not like ths but ths is "my space" so I'll say wht I want to.....Not myself today....

How do u know if he means it whn he says tht he loves u
How do u know tht he won't break your heart
How do u know tht he will never stray
How do u know if a new woman might cm along
How do u know tht he's not thinkg of smone else whn he's with you
How do u know tht you are the one he really wants to be with
How do u know if u're meant for each other
How do u know if his feelings has not changed
How do u know tht he will never leave u
The thg is, you never will knw....

No matter how long u've been together
Love is still a gamble
Sm people lose, sm people win
The stronger you love, the harder you fall
I'm willing to take the risk and fall as much & as hard as I have to
I believe in giving my all in my relationshp as long as he still loves you
I'll cry as much as I want to as long as it makes me feel better
No relationship is free of tests & trial (be it bf & gf, engaged couples or even married couples)
Wht doesn't break a relationshp makes it stronger
It's a matter of working harder and constant dua & prayers (of cos fate lies in Allah swt's hands)
But dun just take everythg as Allah's will n just do nothing abt it
It takes effort on our part as well
Honestly and trust is impt
And if the relationship doesnt work, then : wht doesnt kill you, makes you stronger
Its better to have loved and lost love thn to have never loved at all

Fareez, the closer we get to our wedding, the "scared-er" I am (i'm startg to feel tht 9mth is not too far away)
Will ths work? Will we get the wedding that we've been wanting so much?
Will we be happy? Will it last?
I dunno but I hope we will
We've managed 11 years of sadness, pain, happiness, laughter and Insya-Allah we'll get thru much more together. We're both stronger than we were when we first met. I believe tht ther's a "hikmah" in most thgs tht happen.

I wanna thank you for everythg tht u've given me (eg ur sacrifizes, ur advise, ur honesty etc). U've made me a better person...although I could be much better in many ways but u've helped me change many thgs. Lets continue to work hard together k? I love u Fareez. : )

Ending ths entry with part of "Superman (It's Not Easy)" by Five For Fighting cos ths song can be quite an inspiration at hard times:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see
It might sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
Up, up and away, away from me
Well, it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a phony red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me

My Longest Entry So Far........

I'm on 1wk+ training....feeling lazy to update but thanks to Iryn (mangkuk kau..hehe), i have to update cos i've been tagged! My answers are all wht i can thk of so some may be crap. Anyway here goes....

7 dreams before death
Get Married
Have A few kids (prefer 2, max 4 - dah tua lah. tapi if dah rezeki dpt byk i syukur lah)
To Live Up To My Name (Huda means Guidance), at least with my children
To give my parents the comfortable life they deserve
To Have ended my Life as a good Muslimah
To Perform Haj
To think of more dreams & make them come true

7 things I can't do in this lifetime
Live w/o handphone
Live w/o computer
Live w/o internet connection
Cycle (yes, yes, dun laugh)
Live in this world w/o any love (sorry ah, i'm a very loving person - i love family, frens, cuzins etc : P)
Get angry for too long
Not laugh at least once in a day

7 things that attract me
Fareez (he's not "thing" but who cares)
Spas
Beach Resorts or resorts with private pool...(one i like a lot is The Villa@ Sunway Lagoon)
Colorful Thgs (even colorful blenders attract me..hehE)
Snacks
Love (haha...er sing rite?)
Magazines

7 things I say the most
Bismillah
Ma
Pa
Tsk Tsk
Sigh
Alamak
Hafiiiiiizzzzzz!!!!!! (thts me shouting whenever my lil bro disturbs me..hehe)

7 movies that I luv
Doing Tht Thg You Do (it was touching wht!)
Initial D
Harold & Kumar White Castle or smthg (cant remember title but very funny)
Flight Plan
Too Fast Too Furious
Poseidon (actually ths movie ok2 only but i just cant thk of any movies now)
Not Just Another Scary Movie

7 random facts about me
2nd Child
short attention span
my hair is until my waist now!! (if i bluff, u all also duno..muahaha)
i'm super kanchiong
i'm 26 (although sm say i look 16...haha...in my dreams)
i love music
i'm working (hehe...out of idea lah)

7 things I'm afraid of
Having people hating me
Hurting my fiance, family or frens (i'm quite straight-forward smtimes but those who knw me long enuff understd why i'm like tht lah)
Not getting my degree
Stats subject
Death (my own) & of loved ones
Cats!!!
Bad Music lah (i'm a cacophonophobic mah)

7 random songs at the moment
Thank you for the venom - My Chemical Romance
I'm Not OK - My Chemical Romance
Unfaithful - Riana (dunno how to spell lah)
Scars - Papa Roach (I knw old song but its suddenly coming back to)
Best Days of My Life (erm..dunno rite title or not) - Razmus
Creep - Radiohead
Plush (acoustic version nicer)- Stone Temple Pilot

7 things that I luv
Being in Love
Being Loved
Music
People I love lor
Yoga (though a bit lazy now)
Reading
Snacking

7 tags to do this :

ths will stop here cos i dun have enuf blogging buddies...hehe

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Also, here's a quite update of wht I've been up to lately :

Last Mon to Fri :
nothing much, only my training

Last Sat :
went wayan retreat from 10am to 1pm
met Fafa after Zohor
went Marina Square had lunch @ Long John
went Compasspoint Metro to buy sm stuff
went Marine Parade NTUC to buy sm touiletries
went Al-Majlis in the evening to meet up with Kye n Monica
went to try the DHL Duck Tours Balloon
went Katong for bowling
me, Fafa & Kye sent Monica bck home (u all no need to knw whr she live lah)
tht's it, the last place i went for tht day was slumber land..hehe..tiring day but very fun

Pictures on my multiply cos I've got no access to my pics now

Yesterday :
went religious class frm 9.30 to 11am (i almost didnt go, soooo sleepy but decided to "fight" my laziness n wake up cos i've missed 2 lessons.) : P

Today :
Still on training

Textbooks, Pics & Food...

I'm workg tomorrow (erm, its actually today lah - 8 Jul) but I'm not asleep yet. Bz uploading pics..Hehe
Updates from past few days.

On 6 Jul, my dad helped me to collect my txtbks for my new semester startg next mth. I was kinda excited to get bck to flip thru the books (sounds a bit nerdy huh? hehe). When I got bck home, here is wht I saw :

So thick!!! The health psychology book has no pictures!!! So "wordy"!! I "flipped" after flipping the textbooks. So i decide to put the books aside until school starts. Tht's me, I love to run away from problems n re-visit them later hehe...for certain thgs only lah..For those tht nee immediate attn, no choice lah.

Anyway, had loads of fun taking pics in the office earlier. Here's a preview :



More pics can be found on...my multiply lah....
Ended the day with a great dinner with Fareez. I've heard of 2Hot Halal Cafe but have never tried the food. So we decided to give it a try.

Erm, dunno why I got probs uploadg the dinner pics.(poor Fareez kena marah sikit cos he asked me many thgs while I was re-uploading,..sorry dear. : P )....Anyway, its in my multiply already though....Maybe I try again 2moro...

K lah nite2 ppl, i gotta grab some sleep, I've only got 5hrs left before I get ready for work again....

Bookstore Freaks & Baby Visiting....

Phew...so tired..Me & Min met @ 11.20am, went Harbourfront to collect some stuff & then went to eat @ New York Pizza...Here's wht we had for lunch :

After lunch, we went to "Big Bookshop" just opposite....wah! So many thgs on sale...board games, books (many types of books - for health, baby, children, ghost storybooks, u name it, thy hv it)...both of us covered every single inch of the shop(well almost, we skipped the chinese books section)! There was even one part where both of us were too engrossed looking at the individual thgs tht interests us till we ended up @diff ends of the shop (at tht pt,we both didnt care where the other person was). We bought a few thgs each, books n other stationaries...we would hv bought more if we hadn't stop each other..haha...Bookstores n supermarkets can get me so hyper! So auntie rite???!!!!

After tht both of us decide to visit Lina & ths little baby again...

More pics @ my multiply.....Btw, today was extremely hot, even after the moon came up... I'm using my fan & air-con n its still hot....Hope I can sleep well tonite...

Baby Lutfil Hadi & Mak's Place

Yay! I bought a new usb card reader....I can finally transfer pics to my laptop! U see, my old camera's usb cable is no longer in good shape..Anway, here are some pics from yesterday....

Baby Lutfil Hadi...Hmm, cant really see yee, follow mum or dad's face

me with the wonderful 3 gals who I can always count on

them with a baby

You can find more of yesterday's pic on my multiply. Also, decided to add some pics from Friday..Had dinner @ Mak's Place

HIS (Oh, tht red thingy is chili sauce)

HERS (meaning mine lah...duh!)

Ok tht's all folks...gotta sleep now...Nitezz

She's Back!!!!

She's back!!!! A good fren of mine is back from Perth...She has been studyg in Edith Cowan University since 2004 (i thk....). I miss her soo much, she's my mcdonald, scrabble & long phone conversations buddy! She reached Spore ard 7am yesterday morning. I was shocked to receive her call in the MRT (at 7+am!), we talked a while until I reached office....Hehe....

(both of us@ Han River)

I've not seen her since Feb...I look forward to meeting her & my other frens tonight. We'll be chilling at another of our buddy's house, she just gave birth 11 Jun & has moved to her own flat.....double happiness!! Pray hard tht my camera doesnt die on me tonight...I need the exclusive pic!